I am just sad today. I don’t want to be, but I am. I feel like I shouldn’t be, but I am. I don’t know why I am, but I am. I think that reality is so odd or the way my mind can’t fully grasp it. Yes, I am talking about Christopher’s death. I just don’t think that I fully get it yet. I think that is probably good because if I tried to grasp my loss all at one time, I certainly would have been overwhelmed. I really am even at such a slow pace of understanding.
I just read that the services will be on Saturday for little Gracie Chen. I simply ache for Lili.